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So here is the blog I said I'll make for you my Love =)

I don't even know what to say, where to start, but I'm sure I'll find.
First I thank you for coming there, 'cause it was a very long journey for you and yeah. I could never thank your mother and your aunts even for this, and you for this more than awesome week <3
I can't even find words to say how extraordinary this week was =) I knew I loved you so much, and that I needed you, and that you were going to be perfect for me. But you're even more perfect than what I expected <3
You're just the perfect boy I always wished I'd find, and I found you immediately. I can't even believe it <3 Now that I've seen you I love you even more, and I need you even more.
It was such an awesome week with you. But it was way to short. We were together just for 4 afternoons and 1h30 today ='( But even if it was short, it was the best days of my life.
Time passed so fast. Hours felt like minutes when I was in your arms. And there's never ever (I really mean never ever) been a single second where a blank, where someone was embarrassed because of I don't know what. And yeah =)
We had our serious moments, like at the river, when we were talking about our future, my fears about it. But we also had our dumb moments like for 2011 summer with «Hiya Barbie !» «Hi Ken !» «You wanna go for a ride ?» «Sure Ken !» «Jump In...» or that we'll have kids like ducks have =P <3 Or with «Face d'omelette !» xD We had trashy moments too =$ =) <3 But they were so sweet =) And you are so sweet my love <3 When you take my head in your hands, look at me with your beautiful eyes, let your fingers running on my face and my hair softly, telling me how beautiful I am and how happy you are with me, I just feel perfect, and so happy to have you my love <3 And we also had our perv' moments =P And you know what ? I just decided that we won't put a bell at our house, don't you think it's a good idea ?! =D No ok, joke x) But yeah, even with the bell, it feels good xP (I know it's felt, but it's just to you know what =P)
Putain de bordel de merdeuh ! Errmm sorry =$ SCHEIßE ! xD I know what I wanted to do and that I forgot ! >< I wanted to take a knife to go to the river and write « M+D=<3 » in a tree =$ We'll do it when you'll come back =)

I think I'll make a pause now my love and come back then to say other things =)
I love you <3

So I'm back =)
I also wanted to thank you for your teddy bears and for your jacket. Since I have it I'm always smelling it, and it gives me a strange feeling in my stomach =$ I miss you my love =( I love your perfume (=P) I feel secure when I smell it. I think I'll sleep with your jacket too now =$ But I'm afraid it'll loose your smell if I sleep too much with it =/ And yesterday evening when I went up to my bed to take my pillow to sleep in the sofa, it smelt like us =$
I want to kiss you again. Even if we kissed more than a thousand times, I want to kiss you again and again and again...

Now I'll speak about each day we spent together =)
Monday : I was waiting and waiting and waiting, wondering when you were going to be there, and when I received your text message, my heart started beating so fast and the strange stomach was so strong.
And no, I'll stop there, because you said you wanted me to write about these days, so I'll do it, I think when I'll be on holidays, thought it would have been better if I wrote immediately on the computer but yeah =/ I can scan them =) finally we take the shitty laptop with us =D

I don't really know what to say. I was just so happy to finally see you my love =) <3 But I wished it could have last long and forever,and now I'll be away for 2 weeks =( But after I'll be even happier to see/speak with you again <3 And anyway, I'll see you tonight, before I go =) But somehow it'll be strange/weird/bizarre (xP) to see you through a screen again, 'cause I saw you in real, I touched you, and yeah <3

So I think I'll stop my blog now my love.
Oh and I also wanted to thank you for your I don't know how many sweet/lovely/adorable text messages. But you sent to many sms and now I have to delete some from the mobile phone, but it's so hard to choose which one to delete, 'cause they are all so sweet that I wish I could have them forever.
So see you tonight my love <3
And thank you for everything my love <3

I love you <3

Merci Lori pour la photo =)




No link with my life, I just love this sentence...




Pourquoi elles cassent toujours ?!

On se lève, la tête un peu ailleurs comme tous les matins.
On va dans la cuisine en mode radar, puis dans la salle de bain.
On sort, l'air froid fini de nous réveiller et on est près pour attaquer une nouvelle journée.
On arrive. On dit bonjour aux gens qu'on connait, les mêmes depuis des années.
On passe la journée, comme toutes les autres sont passées, le train-train habituel.
On rentre chez soi et là on se met à réfléchir. Penser à ce qu'on pourrait faire pour avoir une vie plus belle.
On se dit que partir dans une nouvelle ville où personne ne nous connait ça serait bien.
On en trouve une qui nous plait, on cherche un nouveau travail, une nouvelle maison avec jardin.
On part de la ville où on a toujours été pour une nouvelle. On se dit que notre nouvelle vie commence ici.

Qui nous dit qu'elle ne deviendra pas comme la première ?
Moi, car je suis décidée à tout changer pour pouvoir mener ma vie à ma manière.

C'est quand on en a le plus besoin qu'on n'y arrive pas.
C'est quand on a envie de crier au monde qu'on ne va pas bien qu'on n'a plus de voix.
C'est quand on veut dire à quelqu'un qu'on l'aime qu'on se met à douter sur son amour.
C'est quand on a envie de prendre quelqu'un dans ses bras qu'on arrive plus à bouger ses épaules.


Moi je veux crier que non je ne vais pas bien, mais la voix me manque.
Moi je veux te dire que je t'aime plus que tout, mais je ne sais plus où nous en sommes.
Moi je veux te prendre dans mes bras et te serrer fort contre moi, mais je suis paralysée quand je te vois.

On dit que dans la vie, ce sont les erreurs qui nous font avancer.
Mais si justement c'est des erreurs, on voudrait revenir en arrière pour les effacer.
Alors comment faire pour avancer si on veut reculer ?

Moi je veux reculer.
Reculer et retrouver ce que j'avais avant de faire cette erreur que je ne voulais pas faire.
Pourquoi quand on sait qu'on ne doit pas faire quelque chose on finit toujours par le faire ?